“You are the only person who is in charge of how you feel about yourself. Nobody else can possibly do that. You get to decide if you believe you are beautiful or not, and nobody can take it away from you. If someone suggests that you aren’t beautiful, you can consider how sad it is that they have such a limited view of beauty. You can consider how unfortunate it is that they have such an exaggerated sense of self-importance that they think you should care about what they think. You can also choose to realize that it has nothing at all to do with your beauty and everything to do with their limitations.”
| — | Ragen Chastain |
this post is not about eating disorders. Not ready to talk about my experience yet.
But what about all the times that you've stopped talking in the middle of your sentence to let someone else speak and what about all the times someone did something to you and you didn't say anything because you thought that, that person is important to you and you didn't want to lose 'em because of that one time he/she said something behind your back letting that person get away with it and what about all the times that someone pointed out something you hate about yourself and you had to act like it didn't bother you?
The point is, I'm so done with all the people around me (my family included) because they think that just because they have a mouth they can use it to talk about other people's lives. What about your life? You think you are perfect ha? Fuck you if you think that you can mess with someone else's life and after that everything is ok. Fuck you if you think that just because you are my ''family'' I can't say anything to you. Because if you think that after all that, I have to respect you then something is wrong with you not with me. And most of all, FUCK YOU if you think that I didn't try hard to get good grades in NY and if you think that Fashion Design is easy. Because I worked my ass off for a whole month and you don't know how it feels to cry every single night because you miss home and you don't know how it feels to go every day at FIT and try to look happy and smile to your professors because after all, that was my chance to do what I love and coming back home and realizing that my own family was talking about my parents and me makes me freak out so much you have no idea. So yeah, that was your last chance, I'm not doing this again, I'm not gonna smile to you and pretend that everything is ok because it's not! From now on, you're out of my life and I don't care. I'm gonna surround myself with people who care about me and people who are happy about me.
And for all the haters, yes, the second picture-gif is me wearing a bra goodbye
xxFedra
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