Hello everyone, sorry for not blogging a lot these days but I just can't get enough of my freedom until school starts! I just want to spend time with my favorite people and I'm trying to just forget my depression and social anxiety and just be happy before this school year starts.
What the hell is school anyway? A place for people to judge and get judged and gossip and a place for me to hate my life LOL. No, I'm just kidding (you know that I'm not, but too many people from school read my blog to say that I'm not). Anyway, the point is, that I just don't wanna go there, even if it's my last year at school and I should be happy about it, I'm not! After spending some time at the uni this summer for FIT's precollege programs I realized how fun it is to do what you love everyday and being told that you're good at it! I was never a good student at school, you know?! It's not that I can't be, it's just that I'm not interested on studying things I don't like. And there are so many people there, and I don't like any of them except from my best friends all the others are just idiots and I don't like them and they don't like me and it's too awkward for me there, I just wanna stay home with my boyfriend all day and travel and paint and not care about the world... because, if the fool moon loves you, why the fuck worry about the stars?
I know that I'm not a romantic person, even if I try to be, even if I pretend to be one, I just don't believe in magic I guess.. But you, I believe in you. I believe in the way you make me feel and when I'm with you I can talk to you about my scars and about the times I was afraid at night and I can have not-awkward silences with you and I don't care about New York or the fact that school starts as long as I know that at least for the next few months I can come back from school, take a shower, wear my underwear, a cozy sweater and lay in my bed, tired, and call you and ask you how your day was and maybe you can come over and we can cuddle even if it's a school night and we have to sleep and that's pretty much what I want my winter to be this year. Because, I just wanna live for today and I wanna spend my winter painting and blogging and watching movies with you and spending time my best friends because I read somewhere that ''Anything that gets your blood racing is probably worth doing.'' and this is maybe one of the best things I've read in a while now..
here's some music :3
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-hope you guys are excited about school haha
-this is an inspiration post I didn't have any outfit of the day for you guys sorry
xx Fedra
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